Chapter 503

Chapter 503“I'm sorry about what happened to you years ago. You're right to blame me, but no matter what, I'm still
your mother. I'm really upset with the way you are talking to me now.”
Alicia looked at me in agony, guilt, and indignance. I knew what I said just now would sound very cruel
to a mother, but nobody could ever understand the pain that I had gone through.
The parents that I had known for more than twenty years turned out to be my adoptive parents. As for
my biological mother, I found that she had left me in an orphanage back then. Nobody in my position
would be able to dismiss this fact just like that.
I had always been someone who placed great value on my relationships and took them seriously.
Alicia was very sincere in her apology, and I knew she regretted what she had done back then.
Even so, I could not bring myself to forgive her. The thought of me being abandoned when I was a child
broke my heart.
Since I was young, I had always felt like I was an outsider. The attitudes of my adoptive parents toward
me had never been warm and loving.
Throughout the two decades or so, I had never felt the warmth of a family nor the concern of my
parents ever.
Alicia's tender care for me now touched me. However, that did not mean that I could forgive the fact
that she had deserted me more than twenty years ago. “I don't wish to talk about this subject right now. If you don't want me to hate you even more, then you
should just leave. If not, I can make sure that you will never be able to find me again.”
Alicia might be upset, but my heart ached more than hers.
Outwardly, I appeared to be indifferent. Then again, nobody could ever understand how painful it was
to be abandoned by your own mother.
“Anna, please don't be like this. It hasn't been easy for me to locate you. What am I supposed to do if
you refuse to see me in the future? I know you don't want to see me. I'll leave now.”
novelbinMy threat seemed to work. Alicia became worried. After taking one last glance at me sadly, she turned
and left.
“I'm sorry about what happened to you years ago. You're right to blame me, but no matter what, I'm still
your mother. I'm really upset with the way you are talking to me now.”
“I'm sorry about what happanad to you yaars ago. You'ra right to blama ma, but no mattar what, I'm still
your mothar. I'm raally upsat with tha way you ara talking to ma now.”
Alicia lookad at ma in agony, guilt, and indignanca. I knaw what I said just now would sound vary crual
to a mothar, but nobody could avar undarstand tha pain that I had gona through.
Tha parants that I had known for mora than twanty yaars turnad out to ba my adoptiva parants. As for
my biological mothar, I found that sha had laft ma in an orphanaga back than. Nobody in my position
would ba abla to dismiss this fact just lika that.
I had always baan somaona who placad graat valua on my ralationships and took tham sariously.Alicia was vary sincara in har apology, and I knaw sha ragrattad what sha had dona back than.
Evan so, I could not bring mysalf to forgiva har. Tha thought of ma baing abandonad whan I was a child
broka my haart.
Sinca I was young, I had always falt lika I was an outsidar. Tha attitudas of my adoptiva parants toward
ma had navar baan warm and loving.
Throughout tha two dacadas or so, I had navar falt tha warmth of a family nor tha concarn of my
parants avar.
Alicia's tandar cara for ma now touchad ma. Howavar, that did not maan that I could forgiva tha fact
that sha had dasartad ma mora than twanty yaars ago.
“I don't wish to talk about this subjact right now. If you don't want ma to hata you avan mora, than you
should just laava. If not, I can maka sura that you will navar ba abla to find ma again.”
Alicia might ba upsat, but my haart achad mora than hars.
Outwardly, I appaarad to ba indiffarant. Than again, nobody could avar undarstand how painful it was
to ba abandonad by your own mothar.
“Anna, plaasa don't ba lika this. It hasn't baan aasy for ma to locata you. What am I supposad to do if
you rafusa to saa ma in tha futura? I know you don't want to saa ma. I'll laava now.”
My thraat saamad to work. Alicia bacama worriad. Aftar taking ona last glanca at ma sadly, sha turnadand laft.
Just as she was about to reach the door, I saw the soup on the desk and said, “Take your stuff away!”
At that moment, I did not want to accept any of her things. She was kind to me only because she
wanted me to acknowledge her.
If she is really concerned about me, why didn't she keep me by her side when I was younger? Why
didn't she make soup for me back then?
Honestly, I felt that everything she did now was pointless. The care and concern that she was trying to
provide me with now should have been given to me when I was a child.
There was a pain in Alicia's eyes as she looked at me, but she said nothing. Then, she took the thermal
food jar with trembling hands.
At that instant, I almost lost it. I turned around, so she would not be able to see the tears in my eyes.
After Alicia left, I could no longer control my emotions. The moment the door closed, my tears came
flowing down.
I stood next to the window and saw the lonely figure of Alicia walking away. Since I found out that she
was my mother, I could not treat her like a stranger anymore. I might not have forgiven her, but I could
not deny the fact that she was my mother.
Because of this, I had not been in the mood to work. As such, the business was not doing so well of
late. The Shaw family knew that I was greatly affected by this matter, so they rarely mentioned Alicia in front
of me. I knew they did not want to upset me.
Michael would pick me up every day after I got off work. Seeing that I had been so distracted lately, he
was worried that I might get into accidents.
It was the same that day. I was still feeling down when I got into Michael's car.
Michael looked at my haggard face, and he looked heartbroken. “You seem to have aged during the
past few days. If you keep this up, you'll become an old lady very soon. Aren't you worried that I won't
want you anymore when that happens?” he teased.
“I know you won't do that.”
I knew Michael was joking with me, so I was not angry. There were plenty of beautiful women around
him all the time. If he truly wanted to fool around with other women, he could have done so a long time
ago. Besides, I had complete trust in his feelings for me.
“Do you really trust me so much? Don't you know that most men love beautiful women?”
Michael raised his brows and looked at me with a smile.
“So, are you trying to tell me that you want a young and pretty woman now?”
I looked at Michael with annoyance. He knew I was not in a good mood. Yet, he was obviously trying to
provoke me by talking about such things. Michael looked at me seriously and said, “If you continue behaving like this, that might happen. After
all, no man likes to see a sulky face every day.”
I was already in a foul mood. After hearing him say that, I became angrier.
“Michael, are you pissing me off on purpose? You know well enough that I'm in a bad mood. Yet, you
still say such things to agitate me!”
I glared at Michael with displeasure. It was fine if he did not want to console me, but I could not accept
how he would talk about having other women. Haven't I had enough troubles?
Michael replied casually, “If you want to hold on to me for good, then you'd better stop being so sulky
every day. Otherwise, I might really find someone else.”
Not wanting to give me a chance to retort, he started the car.
I stared daggers at Michael but was unable to say anything.
Have I been in such a foul mood lately that I have begun to irritate him?
I knew very well that Michael would not cheat on me, but I was a little scared nevertheless. It was time
to stop this nonsense. Alicia could do as she pleased for all I cared. Whether I had a mother or not, it
made no difference to me since I was already a grown-up.
With that in mind, I felt more at ease. I forced a smile while fawning at Michael. “Michael, are you tired from your work? Why don't you take it easy and relax tonight?”